it just wasn't my day?

Today has to be one of those days where things didn't go the way I wanted it to. SIX supposedly OKAY hours of break turned out horrific the minute..... someone sms-ed me...

First up.

A discussion with another supposedly NICE friend ended up getting cancelled coz she had some other important appointment. So, I thought: AH, whatever. Everytime I suggest something, it doesn't work out. And she suggested the TIMING! Haih. Okay, forget it.

So I thought okay-lah, anyway I had my stuff to do ie touch up my assignment.

Actually it was pretty simple: Proofread + print....

But what made me took SO LONG was....

crazy people HOGGING computers at the library for HOURS. Decided to try the opac computers but for some reason, they didn't have MS WORD! ARGH! Like, seriously? You allow people to print, but don't have MS Word? Then, how on Earth do those people print their stuff??? Speechless.

so off I went to the computer lab. I thought I was done when my assignment started printing. But, horror of horrors, the INK wasn't up to the desired standard. Or, well, at least not something you would like to hand in to an academic... simply because it was all smudgy and hard on the eyes.

Got fed up, went to eat instead.

After eating, round two of looking for computers in the library. As usual, NO LUCK.

Little choice I had, headed to the ITS, where again something similar was going on albeit not as bad as there were only 6 computers there. How was I to know, the USB cable couldn't read my pendrive.

I was close to breaking down coz... I kept walking, walking and walking. Not only my eyes are tired, my whole entire BODY was.

Then, went to the darn library again. This time, there was a computer.......... seat empty, so I thought, fine. But there was a book on the table.

So I asked the person next to the empty chair whether there was someone here.

 I assumed, it's idiots like these who HOG the computer... and after getting bored... go somehwere, leaving their stuff, thinking that NOODY will ever USE that computer.

By right, it's a policy that you don't leave your seat more than 15 mins and your computer just like that, to go off and have FUN.

Do I care? Well, at first, I was hesitant. But then I thought, hey, this people needed to be taught a GOOD lesson. Seriously.

LOGGED out of their account, ignoring whatever assignment they were doing, saved or not, i don't give a ______________ 

Sat down, re-read my assignment for the 1257th time.

And then,

the person(s) who was using the computer CAME BACK.

Obviously, she/they didn't expect someone to 'steal' her computer. But, WT_? You leave your computer for so long, how am I supposed to know? And by right, if you know you want to go out for more than 30 minutes, for GOD's SAKE, LOG OUT of your silly account and just LEAVE! 

Is that so hard to obey?

I was really really really mad at the time. But, words just didn't come out. Guess I was too PISSED to even TELL THEM OFF. 

SO, I did the next best thing, WALK OFF hurriedly with my pendrive, still FURIOUS.

ALL THAT JUST TO PROOFREAD + PRINT ONE ______________ ASSIGNMENT that I've started doing in week 1.

OH DEAR LORD.Do you know how many hours I spent just to look for a computer and a PRINTER? Oh dear LORD, do you know how many JERKS I have to encounter each day??????????

At least, I learnt something: Don't ever (TRY TO) print your assignments in uni.

The reason I wanted to was because... I knew I ended late today and thought maybe I could use my six hours of break to PRINT. But in the end, it cost me 4 hours of looking around for computers including walking.

Well, at least, it's printed out now that I'm finally HOME and don't have to fight with anyone! Ugh! 

And for God knows what reason, I realized I had a TYPO! Ugh! But whatever la. I'm just gonna let it slide.

Can't do much since I've sumitted the soft copy already. 

because i want a break

today felt like the longest day... maybe coz i had information overload. thank you, autobiography. 

but while I had break, was talking to X, and then she brought up something regarding one of my classmates in Sri KDU. Heh. Small world, really. Wasn't really close to her back in high school but we worked for one of our projects. Haha. OMG, the minute she mentioned the word project, suddenly, all the memories came back.

And one of the reasons I profoundly remember it was because... 

FLASHBACK 2007

my classmate let me and my other teammates do all the work. Well, perhaps the BULK of it. Of course, we all know she has problems of her own and god knows what else, but then, her excuses and problems became way too much for us to handle. But of course, in front of the teacher, we pretended that everything was alright and we didn't mind that she was doing very little.

there was a guy but that guy wasn't willing to sacrifice his bedtime to do the project so I was like: Ah! You know what? Let it slide.

then, I had a fallout with the other girl in my group who didn't exactly come to terms with the things I was doing. So, in the end, exhausted, I was, I gave up and let her deal with the rest on her OWN.

AWESOME, tak?

Well, I thought she only did that in school and God knows why she never changed for the better

 which was WHY I keep on saying: It was one thing to deal with the smart-ies in my class. It was another to deal with kurang ajar- ignorant-showoffer-malas brats.

Nak mintak tolong pun susah... dah pandai sgt, tak payahlah tolong orang lembab macam aku. Dahlah, bila suruh buat kerja sikit, masa tu, bagilah alasan.

And, it is unfortunate that no matter where I go, my group members are always, without fail, lousy, problematic and un-cooperative.

which is why, thank god the course I'm doing now - we don't have that much group work. If at all, only twice per semester. 

because it's so much better working on your own.

you don't have to wait for people

you don't even have to worry about being BOSSY

you have yourself to blame if expectations are not met



Thanks for the memories, man. And thank you for letting me pour my heart out about this particular girl... aka classmate whom in my opinion needs HELP to sort out her priorities in LIFE.

A post that is not so meh

Aside from Sartre and The Lover which I find highly difficult to read, these are the books that I'm reading now.

Diary of A Wimpy Kid. Haha, I only like it coz of the illustrations... Jokes wise, some really funny, some err... okay-lah :)

Nicholas Sparks' Safe Haven. Initially, I thought " Surely another sappy, melodramatic love story with oh-so cliche storyline" But you know what? The day I bought it, i wasn't seriously reading it because ballet took away all my energy and concentration. But the following day, I re-started from page 1, and who knew I was at page 113 in just four hours????

Hmm, but for now, i gotta give way to assignments + readings.

Say hello to Freud.

There's hope, right???

It's nearing the end of week 4 and soon enough, week 5 would come crawling in. And unfortunately, this sem,  the readings just seem INCREASINGLY harder to get by - particularly Authorship. I realise it's a lot easier to LET GO off that reading than to actually TORTURE yourself reading it. It's a BATTLEFIELD, really.  It's tough keeping up with those ANG MOHs who always have something INTELLIGENT-SOUNDING to say. While I feel like I UNDERSTAND the theories, I may NOT when it comes to writing my assignment + exams. Of course, there's always Google and Wikipedia but don't tell me you want to depend on them for exams.

So far, only 2-3 people have really contributed to the discussion board set up by Aust. Yours truly, included - tries very hard. Very very hard.


I hope this leads me somewhere. I hope I can wake up and guide myself in the right direction. I just hope I learn something out of this unit, even IF I may not excel in it.


AND I REALLY HOPE MY EFFORT ACTUALLY PAYS OFF. Not like some pathetic SPM subject that NO MATTER HOW HARD I study, and no matter HOW MANY SAMPLE QUESTIONS I DO, in the end, cheh, 5C... or 6C....
Epic waste of time for being in the stream I didn't really want to be. And epic waste of time puting up with those super-loaded, rich, kurang ajar brats.


Let's hope I have BETTER luck with a subject that was supposed to be for students at a HIGHER LEVEL of study. Meh, don't ask me... why....

Aku tak reti pakailah!

Man, Samsung Galaxy Tab... why you so complicated-one????

looks like I gotta install voice recorder app since I noticed memang takde pre-installed voice recorder :(

some said it's integrated with the camera, I went there too before asking! But, tgk2 macam video recording je.

Sigh, so mafan!

Wasted 2000+ bucks for a gadget I don't really know how to use.

Manuals takde pun explain how to record audio. Ish...

the usual stuff i ramble about

Week 3 ended just like that. It was nothing too exciting nor was it utterly boring.

went for this talk on confidence + blablabla pschology. Found it quite interesting. Stayed back for free food. LOL. 

To-do list

1. Do my readings! (2 weeks left behind mainly because a lot of them are so hard to read)
2. Try look up stuff for Authorship & Writing + Making a Difference essays.
3. Narrow down scope of research question for Media Audience proposal.
4. Submit assignments with REFERENCES.
5. Make sure don't confuse due dates of soft and hard copies. (now that some subj/units require us to do so. dang NEW policies)
6. Make sure I paraphrase sentences as much as possible. (now that they use TURN IT IN. Sigh, just when I thought I could tell ppl "Yay! My faculty doesn't use TURN IT IN!'')
7. Make sure you choose the right question to do IF there's a choice.
8. Force myself to read Sartre even though I find it utterly confusing.
9. Pull through 'The Lover' even though I think the narrator in it is INSANE.
10. Keep Thursdays fun and productive.
11. Drop by StarBucks +lunch Box one day IF time permits.
12. Remember to apply to graduate ONCE you finish exams this sem.

ALL THESE by June. Woot! Bring them! :)

not only my 'g' isn't working

as of two days ago, I realized... that my 'b' isn't working properly.

omg la how am i gonna do my assignments like that if one by one the letters on my silly keyboard start malfunctioning?

I have 5 assignments altogether and all of them are due starting from week 5. week 6 got a non-compulsory proposal synopsis summore :( week 7, 2 assignments (2500 words) week 9 got 1 assignment and the real audience proposal due.

So much typing, hopefully no typos. Aiyo, esp authorship.....

keyboard, pls tell me you'll e alright until I am out of uni.

last thursday

thursday has to e one of the most relaxing yet tiring day. why? simply because I have a 5-6 hour break.

well, thank God last thursday wasn't that much of a drag.

coz I went looking around for friends.

finally settled at the cafeteria with Xtina and the gang.

borak pun banyak

while we were actually immersing ourselves with humourous YouTube videos and the likes on Xtina's iPad!

Xtina wanted to get ROJAK

And I said: Huh? Got ROJAK MEH? I've been at uni the longest than any of them and yet I still don't know. Or maybe I just don't like to go to explore near the drinks stall. Haih.

Xtina went over....


Came back minutes later lamenting: DON'T HAVE la! Tutup kedai, edi. (Typical us M'sians)

Haha. So cute.

Because we were so bored (in particular, me coz I had break which seemed forever) Xtina suggested we play Scrabble. I thought... Wah, where? How? Got meh? Got space meh?


And then... JENG!


On iPad!!!!

Haha! I'm so noob! Like, seriously?! People are so  smart to build the VIRTUAL game. SO u could bring it anywhere you wanted to!

Yeah, it was fun dragging letters using our fingertips.....

But of course, nothing beats the physical/ real SCRABBLE game. The game board, how we'd always take tiles when we ran out of tiles after our turn.

Nonetheless, Xtina and all, thanks for your time. Even though I only spent an hour on the game.

After that, I went to find another friend to teman me around. From eating to looking for lecturers and even complaining aout UNI. Heh. So many things about the M'sian campus is so....sigh.

Hoping for another exciting thursday next week :)

Week 1 down

With week one down, I'm hoping for some MORE exciting weeks ahead. Dunno whether it will happen coz I've been panicking about assignments. Better panic right now rather than closer the due date; when you realise you don't know what you're typing, when technology ultimately decides to fail you, when you realise that you should have gone to the library earlier blablablablablablabla.

Still worried how this sem is going to turn out. Have an awesome trio of lecturers but then... the assignments just seem so scary.

On the bright side, I have less assignments to hand in this sem. SO, less frequent trips to the assignment box. *fingers crossed*

Finally there's someone who makes sense

To read fast is as bad as to eat in a hurry. -Vilhelm Ekelund, poet (1880-1949)

:) This is precisely why I need TIME to read.

Esp dry and long-winded academic reading.