there's still hope

Had the most lively and possibly the most memorable discussion in my entire life (as an undergrad). Took a while to break the ice though I'm actually EXTREMELY glad they said they're willing to JOIN the discussion.

Thank you, Miss English Major. I like how precise and concise you were. She really nailed it. I have a feeling she's gonna ACE the paper which is why I asked her to help us... desperate souls. Without her, discussion would have been so much different. Really.

Truly, truly appreciate the help of Z and D. Wish you both could spend another sem helping me to better phrase my answers/essays. Hahah!

I'm beginning to feel there is slight hope for me to ace that heavily theoretical unit. THIS LOVE-HATE relationship with the unit shall end on the 18th. Well, it better.

Wahlau

I just realised how heavy this semester is. It didn't seem overwhelming in the first few weeks. (Well, maybe it did.) but now when I think of it, I actually have FOUR papers waiting for me. Sometimes, I wonder if what I've studied make sense. OMG. I really dunno. I thought Authorship was the only exception being  the OMGCANDIE paper but it seems CCP and Media Aud aren't that straightforward either. CCP is pretty DRY. Media Audience on the other hand, may sound like FUN but then again, there's just WAY too much to study sometimes I collapse the two subjects, they're related anyway. At times, I find myself saying EH? I'm confused. :S

Attempting past years seem like the only way to study at this point. Because only then, I will FORCE myself to actually read the blasted reader. There's NEVER time for me to read-lah. Most of the time, I do read but that's because of assignments. Haih... I bet it's gonna be the same for everyone, every semester.

Guess all I can do now is study, attempt past years, look at my notes and HOPE that the questions are answerable.

Wish me luck.

Wow

Endless chatter filled the room

People were roaring with laughter

before i eventually nudged Kim to ask her: Eh, so our plans how???

Friends all PAISEH  to ask the Aussie gal.

Fortunately, something told me to forget that and go ahead

Went to her seat. Trust me, I actually am scared of talking to people, especially when it's someone new and totally not of the same kind. But I thought hey, that's where ALL friendships start right??? And what IF you were to work with FOREIGNERS???? You can't just say NO. And I don't think I'm that scared anymore considering I have had  lecs from Australia, UK and the US.

Hmm, did that sound conceited???





Okay, stop. digressing. >.<


Guess what? She was up for it. She said: Yeah, sure! Is there a bus I can take???

 I told her: Maybe you could help because the subject is pretty complex >.< Don't worry someone will ferry you around :)

OMG, I like you, Z. I like you. Really. I am thankful that you said YES!!!

I just hope everything goes well as planned.

talk. to. her.

Will I have the confidence to talk to that Aust girl in my class???

It's not the first time I'm talking to her

Spoken to her twice but that was because she sat next to me.

Glad I started some kind of conversation although it probably wasn't the most interesting one(s).

Now what will her reaction be like IF I invited her to study together????

Will she say yes?

Will she say NO?

Is she going to be hesitant?????????????????

Then again, it will be an INTERESTING experience if we ever did that

I mean, what is she gonna take home when she goes back to Aussie?


Talk. to. her, person. typing. this.

I. know. you. can. do it.

IF. she. turns. down.


KNOW that at least you have TRIED.


but first of all, she needs to turn up for tomorrow's LAST class >.<

One more week left

before we bid goodbye to the amazing trio of lecs I've had. No actually we already sort of bade goodbye to ONE of them considering we wouldn't have anymore classes with him. Neither am I going to see him next sem or forever :( because he's LEAVING :( He's probably the BEST lec ever :)

As for the COMM  lec, I can only say... thanks for all the times you've spoken to me like a FRIEND. And thanks for teaching us Aussie/Brit pronunciations of words. Found them utterly cute and funny. Awkward, maybe? But in a good way. :) I better ACE his PAPERS.

Well, the last person I'm gonna talk about or NOT.... hmm, in case he  reads this, I'm so dead. Oh well... anyway. WHO CARES. HE WILL SCREAM AT ME & EVERYONE ELSE OF HIS STUDENTS! Thanks a lot for all that. All your comments that make us want to *bangheadonwall* LOL.


Now to ace all their papers :) OMG.

hopeless

yet another round of struggle with assignments as the Internet is having its own form of PMS.

seriously, I can just crush my laptop and destroy all my other stuff inside it knowing that this struggle is useless

plus, people keep bugging me like I'm the HUMAN WIKIPEDIA or something.

And when I ask them for help, they come up with 1001 excuses

High school, it happened
College once again.... it happened


And EVEN in the most reputable and prestigious uni, this happens....


Even after I TRY hard not to give out too much information, they'll dig out bits and pieces from me, just because they know I AM STUDIOUS.


Lesson learnt: Always HELP YOURSELF and ONLY YOURSELF unless the other person helps you back, sincerely.

God knows what will happen.

But for now, Internet, PLEASE do not DIE on me. You can die after I'm done with my final assignment.

If only our teachers were like this...

I can see that you struggled BUT...

Yeah, what a struggle to WRITE especially when you are wrting on something highly abstract.

My lecturer's comments are soooooo heartbreaking at times I just want to BANG MY HEAD on the wall and say "WHY ON EARTH DID I WRITE THAT?" when I could have just very well deleted that CONFUSING and excruciatingly difficult paragraph. Seriously, I don't even know what I was writing at the time. I have NO IDEA what compelled me to do so.

But....

a good effort nonetheless.

Some of my theories may have not been very well explained and some of my interpretations didn't really hit the nail but....... since it's my ever so funny yet sarcastic lecturer, a 33 is pretty good.


SO much of agony... and even after we arrived at tutorial, he prolonged our agony. Asdfghjhfrhlnnxbsv.


OH DEAR GOD.... HERE's to hoping that I hit the right notes during the exams. Really. It's DO or DIE.

I need to pen this down

First thing first..... calm down JL. Do not go into panic attack tomorrow when taking back your Auth assg.

Depressing matters aside, I went for an Honours presentation by a super witty friend of mind, ANDREA. Twilight. Hmm, vampire films and stuff. Intertextuality and pastiche. I believe 20 mins is too short a time :( But at least they gave you the opportunity to step into another milestone of academic life. Heh.

There's another girl before her but her one feels more complex than my friend's but nonetheless... hats off to you for having so much confidence during delivery.

As for me.... I'm in my final year already. OMG! I still remember one of my Aussie lecs saying. Hello, welcome to COMXXXX. You will see me again in XXXX and XXXX in your third year if you're doing COMM.

And HERE I AM NOW SOLDIERING as a third-year, doing BOTH his stimulating yet dry subjects. Meh, I don't think I need to explain. You know how subjects are at my uni.

Here's to hoping that I do OKAY for this sem and next sem.



Okay, dry stuff aside....


Went to lepak at Starbucks for the second time in what? my entire life this sem? HAHAHA. Well, I wouldn't have gone if the cafe food wasn't so bland. Oh, yeah. Uhm I went mostly for the free drink upon registration of the Starbucks card. Starbucks card works on reload, btw.


Free drink. Siapa tak nak????


LOL


Then in the midst of chatting and drinking with my other friend, saw another friend. Xtina. Hehe. Dia pun bosanlah, agaknya.

Shifted places so we could chat with her just for the sake of killing boredom XD


And close to 3pm, D came and kacau. Haha. Was going off for class alrdy so he could steal Tina. :P

Upon leaving, D said to me: Eh, y'know, you're awesome-lah.
Me: Huh? *seriously*?
D: you do ballet ah? Do you do professionally????
Me: :) hahaha, no-lah. For exercise... :D :D

D: Eh, you like music also right? You play *the black and white keys* also right????
Me: Yeah. What's so awesome, wor? *Is that so awesome*?
D to Xtina: (referring to me) Eh, this gal so high class punya, you know.
Xtina: Haha, yeah! :D
Me: Hahahaha, THANKS!!!!!!!

That was totally random. First met D in college. But I was never close at all! Then came UNI, oklah, altho never that close yet. Then same class a few times but coz he's never really around in class... so... Then, today, all of a sudden, he can come and tell me that I'm AWESOME.

Eh, you know how much I had to go through to be this *AWESOME* or not?????


First enrolled in electone with no idea whether I'd like it or not . But mainly for improved coordi.
First few basic classes at 6 years old was okay. But as time went by, I started hating it, dreading to go to class because I had a teacher who's A PERFECTIONIST. Really. Torture. I mean, if I didn't practice it was because I had schoolwork :( And IF I didn't sing loud enough, it was because I didn't want to sing the wrong notes :(

For all I know you reprimanded all of us in group class that I think at one point, I got fed up. Of course, we had our concert. Outfit all nice... Yeah, you think so??? Meh... good exposure, I know but then....


Then I dunno why PIANO came into the picture. So I had another instrument added into the equation.

I realised that I could not handle BOTH at the same time. ALWAYS went to PIANO class CRYING because I didn't do HOMEWORK for ELECTONE/ORGAN class. Did I have to let the other teacher know???? I think she found out.... way later....

But, my PIANO teacher wasn't all that nice either despite her giving me CUTE stickers after each class. She was another person who PUSHED me, too. If I remember one thing she said, it's that I was one of her worse students because I sucked at CONTRARY MOTION. I can't rmb if she sent me out for not performing well enough, but nevermind.... you taught me, nonetheless.

In the end, her other commitments kept her busy & made me meet another teacher. WOOT!!!! I was happy because she was a PLEASANT lady who thought my best friend, too :) :) HAHA.

Unfortunately, life had better plans for me so I bade goodbye to her. :( So sad but yeah... what to do, right?

So met this lady who was a recomendation of my nice teacher.... OMG, seriously, she's funny and all but :(


And then, time came when I could tell I wasn't SERIOUSLY practising anymore. No time. Horrible fingering. Pathetic timing. Theories that were too hard to comprehend. Impatience.


ENOUGH!!! ENOUGH!!!


Now? I'm happily playing on my own without anyone shouting at me whenever my stupid fingers decide to defy me. Nobody to kill me IF I don't use the pedal the correct way.


THIS IS HOW I GOT TO BE THE AWESOME THAT I AM TODAY.

Sigh, like anyone's gonna read this.




I NEED to get back to my assignments!!!

CCP, I'm coming!!!