the irony

After YEARS of dealing with mind-boggling mass comm theories and countless academic essays, I've come to realize that

1) Your written expression matters

Most of the time, it is the ONE thing that determines whether you get a D or a HD.

but at the same time,

2) it has done nothing but 'corrupt'-ed my written expression (thanks, yet no thanks to how much I focus or pay attention to the theories) (What did I just type? Seriously? See, that's what I mean)


Like, how I just realised there were actually some grammatical and spelling errors in my final essay... ever (fingers crossed)

today is a good day

:) Remember my final essay? I swear I didn't expect very high marks. Esp. because I didn't really know what I was talking about for some parts. I actually took some time off it because the theories were way too much to bear. But guess what? Luck was on my side! Next time, I know how to do my assignments already.

Funny how the essays you worked so hard for sometimes, but in the end you only get an average grade. But the ones you didn't think you did so well, you end up getting HIGHER.

FIVE

:) How come we never really bothered to think about it??? 

Three

three more exams to the end of a bittersweet journey. :( And I think today's the LAST day I'm talking to my exchange student (best friend) FACE-TO-FACE :( I realise that most of them are more the I-talk-face-to-face kind than the I-talk-online kind. :( Had class test today and even though I wish I could have written better, I decided not to write anymore, surrendering is sometimes better than giving yourself too much pain.

I cannot believe this.

I cannot believe I am saying goodbye to my exchange student (best) friends.

I cannot believe I have three more exams.

I cannot believe three years has gone by so fast.

I cannot believe that I am at this stage now.

Why isn't she a bit more famous?

I need a break from all the garbage I've been exposed to. 

Isn't she beautiful??? :)

can't bring myself to

study.

Man, what's this?!


More proof I want the sem to just end and be a lazy bum >.<

First test in 3 days plus

Three official exams in slightly over two weeks time

the readings are killing me :(

tokyo hates me

london is so ZzzzZ

NY and S'pore maybe still worth the read.

sighhhhh. demotivated.

timely

Came accross this: 'God determines who walks into our lives. Then it is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go. #True Indeed#

je ne sais pas

Je ne comprends pas. Is there something wrong with mixing around with ANYONE and EVERYONE? My close friend seems to think... haih i dunno, phobia ke apa? Don't get me wrong. Not that I hate you. But janganlah seolah-olah "I am your possession". I am not here to entertain you every semester but you can be sure I'd remember you for life. No kidding.

gosh

you know you just can't wait for sem to be over esp when you can actually MIX UP your name with someone else's i.e. JOCELYN. Coz I thought it was Jocelyn's reading. Sheesh. What's wrg with me??? I actually didn't realise I had a presentation today, you know??? Thank god, it wasn't another lecturer. THE reading, I didn't know he actually picked one for me! He shd have reminded me! Coz the first time I was supposed to present, I didn't coz I injured my leg thanks to how I fell down. Then, I thought of postponing but there was no time so he said tak payahlah. SO, I thought I was done. Then again, I felt pretty awkward that I never presented anything.

Today, however, I got the shock of my life when lec said I was presenting.

And I thought to myself, APA aku nak buat ni? You have to come up with sth! in 20 mins!

Guess what? I summarized the rdg in 4 sentences because I couldn't really und what was going on. I mean, it's abt govt, sexuality post-rep. Apa entah. There was also sth abt Dickens. I think it was an example relating to govt. Problem is I didn't know how to elaborate. :(

NASIB baik, no marks. Phew. AND lecturer didn't seem to mind. In fact, he said I presented! LOL!

I swear I will never do this again! I've never forgotten something so important before.

Well, I kinda think the presentations don't help me much anyway. Unless it's like 1 presentation per week. Ini sometimes 6 presentations in 45 mins.

Okay, not gonna whine anymore.

Fingers crossed, I don't ever have to present academic readings anymore.

just remembered

just now, while waiting for the other class to come out of lec hall so we could go in, Aaren spotted a luggage bag outside the lecture hall. Said sth pretty funny. Someone must be so 'semangat' sampai bawak the luggage bag.. wanna stay out here is it? LOL.

I wonder whose luggage bag is that???

sayonara?

I'm gonna miss all you wonderful people no matter how long we've known each other.

Jess
Mike
Dane (the only one who has been here the longest)


in the beginning, I was a lil' intimidated BUT as weeks went by, I found this bunch interesting, uber expressive and FUNNY. Really.

Esp. Mike. All your PUSHING me to GO FORWARD and to NEVER BE AFRAID.... AMAZING, just pure AMAZING. How you're soooooo casual with me (and perhaps with some of your other friends) sometimes makes me wonder: AM I DREAMING?! Nobody has ever talked to me like that before. Thank you for sharing with me ALMOST ALL your wonderful (or shd I say bittersweet) experiences. Sorry if I don't talk to you, either I'm exhausted or just really SHY. Either way, you have taught me so much. Don't know IF I will get to say goodbye to you but... thank you for sharing two classes with me.

Dane... for all your help with Auth last sem. Really thank you. And thank you for sharing two classes with me this sem.

Jess. the other girl who remembers my name after meeting me once. HAHA. Oh yeah, she did present with me & Mike. Now I remember. :)


Words can't describe how much I value this friendship soooooo much. AND it amazes me how this bunch of people are actually YOUNGER than me.

OMG, man. I owe you guys a visit.

the other day, my buddy and I took the lift up to our tute. Then, an older lady came in. THE lift door then closed and we thought we were on our way up already when two seconds later, these bunch of youngsters came in. The lady was actually pretty nice to hold the door for them.

But guess what? They failed to say thank you.

Fortunately, the lady was smart enough to insist, I repeat, INSIST on a THANK YOU.

She went: THANK YOU?

Random guy youngster 1: HUH?

Her reply: I held the door for you.

Random guy youngster 1 and 2: Oh... right. Thank you.


Hebat betul kan?

I always say thank you to the person who holds the door for me. Lift, Classroom, Lecture hall, wherever, or if it becomes too much of a task, I just nod while smiling. I think most of them get the message.

Now I know why the exchange students say we're so......... sigh. I did not say anything-ah? I'm just recounting my experience. One of the many experiences-lah actually.

the last time

so today's the LAST TIME I'm visiting the assignment boxes. YOU KNOW WHAT that means right? After releasing it into the box, it just felt... I dunno. Probably relieved? But at the same time, it's sad. It means... you're closer to the end of your entire three years. Was it well-spent? I'm not quite sure. But ONE THING FOR SURE, the lecturers were pretty approachable. At least, most of them were.

And the most amazing thing is that I've learnt so much. Not only in terms of the theories... but  I've grown so much sometimes I think, WHAT are you doing JL! Are you crazy? You're approaching your lecturer?! You're talking to a guy: a White guy you never knew you could be so casual with? (I'm thinking he's the most friendly and the most casual to me... even though he might have other M'sian friends) You're talking to her? A S. African? What? You went for a FOAM/RAINBOW party and danced the night away? What? I was grammarian once in TM?

Man, I can't believe.... all those late nights... sleeping at 5 or 7 am sometimes. has all come down to this. All those... Eh, go study-lah! (Well, this still applies since I've exams) but really?????????

I've won half the battle... without intermission.... they say if u can survive without intermission wah. hebat. salute. And I think so too! :)

Now, to pass all my exams. 

honestly, i'd be very happy if i get a Credit for this assignment. Don't really care much. I'm exhausted.

1977 words. what else do you require?

why did they set up an Apple store?

Hello, why did they set up the Apple store on-campus again? THinking that someone would be nice enough to buy their stuff? Student discounts? Still mahal gila okay, for someone who ain't working yet. Plus, NOT everyone's a fan of apple.

I was expecting them to build new foodstalls...... but I guess I was wrong.

On a random note, something's so wrong with me - I ain't eating properly :(

satu lagi pos yang membazir masa

like I said, I'm just gonna delay that silly assignment till friday comes. I'm looking at it now but meh... until I'm ready to write again... I will. Seriously, it is exhausting, EXHAUSTING. AND I can tell that I'm not the only one because so many of my kawans are BURNED OUT. pulling their hairs out. banging tables. frustrated at the library database. writer's block. whatever.

1) Went to buildg 9 instead of 6 where my lecture was supposed to be today
2) Accidentally signed in someone else's column for attendance (thank goodness for liquid paper) because I read 'W' as 'Y' (damn first names and last names... who really cares, lah.. Why can't they just put student name?)
3) Not eating lunch properly
4) Wrote the wrong unit code for one of my subjects' assignments (thank god, my lecturer didn't realise the details on my coversheet)

Yes, now you know. I hope I don't collapse in week 12. No, you can't; you have a class test to sit for.

just realised how hard it is to study when you have exam papers back-to-back

esp when you have a subject that isn't exactly your cup of tea

which supposed to be an elective. Yeah, so much for looking for a relaxing one. Sweat.

don't even have the mood to study yet but since my paper is in 27 days time, I cannot afford to waste more time :(

:( :( :( Having exams is no fun. Having back-to-back exams is REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY NO FUN :(

A reminder

Dear final assignment,

It's not that I don't want to continue writing you but I am seriously exhausted. Just handed in your sister today. I promise to re-start with a fresh mind (hopefully) on Friday.


As it stands now, I'm at 1000 + words which hopefully make sense. Another 1000 to go!

Sometimes I have to take risks.